I really recommend you first watch the Introduction videos on Journeywithamodernmystic.com before watching the other videos and reading my blogs so you understand the Journey. Note: I mention experiences with Ken. It is not the personnality of ‘Ken’ rather the Energies that create these experiences.
I have a commitment to my spiritual process, specifically dates and times I meet with Ken.
I have reached a point in my journey that Ken allows me to choose when I want to meet and work on my struggles/ego.
Work with the ego is never done. You could mostly lose your ego before you die, and you would still have moments reminding you of your fleshly existence. For example; knowing you are not a body to overcome physical pain, temptations of your ego, slips of your personality getting in the way of being a servant of love , and maybe old family and friends interacting with the old personality which you have worked to no longer experience.
Well to come from my own experience; I knew I needed to look at some aspects of my ego when I made a new friend. This friend was single (unlike myself; married and with a young child) and I thought it would be fun to go out to the bar and skip my morning session with Ken. I saw an opportunity to flirt, dress cute and sassy, see the young faces of my peers- the late 20 somethings and see what they were doing. I had been busy for two years spiritually and responsibly as a mother. This would be a blast from the past Jodi. A boost for my ego. I could get some attention.
I met with Ken the Wednesday before to let him know I wouldn’t make Fridays session. Ken had loosened the reins, after intensively giving me experiences of psycho-puncture to rid my ego and its systems of functioning. His Shaman Master had punctured through his ego facade by the same treatment. (I will save this for a whole other blog).
I said to Ken, “I feel like the night could be fun, and I would really like to hang out with ‘so and so’ “. We were driving in my car when I spotted a red-tailed hawk on the grass behind a school fence. If you are not familiar with the image of a red-tailed hawk, they are beautiful. I mistook them for owls for a long time because I had seen owls in the area. He said this was an omen. The Energies were speaking to me. He asked me questions, “How did you experience this new friend?” ”What are you really wanting to experience with this night?” All guiding me to my own truth that I concealed; the ego is tricky!! I was beguiled by my ego’s desires. I know what is truly for my highest good. We sat chatting in the car about my truth now revealed; wanting to be flirty, looking sexy, getting attention, being with the 20-somethings….and a second hawk flew down in front of the car not more than 1o feet away then up into a tree to rest.
Ken’s redundancy rang in my ears, true and loving, “Jodi, your ego will kill you.” He continued with new words and put the Journey in crystal clear perspective that I shivered from their profound truth. “I am telling you…you have entered a Journey and it is not a game. The Principles you are now aware you cannot use for the Dark forces. The Principles are a gift that have been shared with you.”
I know I have choice in my life. And the choice with what I now know. I want the highest good for myself, and the highest good for everyone, so the choice is clear.
I feel pain when I choose my ego, and pleasure when I choose Who I Really Am. I/Love! I am so moved by this truth in this Now moment as I write because I am still wrestling with my ego, and letting the external madness seep into my pure soul. Today, I got caught in the web of material goods, and beauty. It was empty.
In case you are curious, I didn’t go out that night. I shared my truth, with this friend, that I was going out for the wrong reasons. I needed to share with her my truth so she would know I wouldn’t be interested again, and not to take it personally.
I have come to these crossroads a lot in my current days. I need to practice my disciplines (yoga, solitude, meditation, being in nature, acts of kindness, deeply connecting with my son and husband) to overcome the duality, the illusion and become Nada, and in the Now.
Love to you! Peace for you! And joy joy joy!!